Well I think its definetly time I did a decent update!
I'm living in the old part of Rojales now with my boyfriend Joaquin, and its fantastic. We've been together nearly three months now and I have never been in a relationship which has allowed me to be so happy, relaxed and "myself".
I've changed jobs, as I decided that working at the Pub was no longer a viable option and that the atmosphere there was unhealthy and unproductive. My new position is still as a chef, but on a better rate of pay, better hours and in a much better business. I'm entirely happy that I've made the changte and although it took a little courage i feel my life is improved by doing so.
We got a little fox terrier from a rescue home in Dolores, and have named him Rocky. He's totally adorable and we really enjoy having him in the house.
I experienced my first earthquake a couple of weeks back- exciting! And another one the other morning- a sign of earth changes to come.
Well, thats about all for now- its really hot so i can't concentrate!

Feelin better.
Everything is going better.

Finally moved house today.
Its been a stressful week, with lots of tears, mayhem and crazy behaviour but i feel that i've straightened a lot of things out in my head now.
I love the new place- its much warmer and sunnier, and its great to be able to lay on the balcony and sunbathe- i'm going to be soooo gorgeously tanned.

More soon, when i'm less tired.

So, yet again i'm having a totally wicked random night.
Met up with a guy thats kinda hot, in henry's and we've ended up chilling all night gettin wasted.
I'm gooood.

I'm not sure why exactly it is but i seem to have a magnetic quality for alcohol. The unfortunate thing is that as alcohol is drawn to me, so are perverted men.
It can be kind of funny, but sometimes i really wish that I looked like a beast so that people wouldn't feel the need to whisper dirty things in my ear, or make suggestive remarks constantly.

Well my two days off turned out to be really good fun.
Ended up going for a few drinks last night at Henry's Bar in Los Palacios. Got a call from a guy I've been chatting to for a bit online who was in the area so he came and joined me for a bit. Good conversation, but he didn't pay for my drinks *sulk*
After he left I got more drunk with the chef from the bar. He was forced to listen to my drunken theories and see my drunken dancing, poor man. Actually he probably enjoyed it because i'm so damn fabulous!

Tonight after work I'm supposed to be hanging out with awesome sex boy,so we'll see how that goes.

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Ok, so someone tell me I'm not the only one that thinks she looks worse now shes skinner?

I can't wait to move to the new apartment now. It's totally going to be awesome.
I realise i haven't actually explained anything about this move to you lot so i'll start at the beginning..
The apartment i'm in just now has been great, but over the winter months, its been totally fucking freezing, theres started to be some serious problems with damp on the walls, especially in my bedroom and i also get a little annoyed in the summer because the only place to sunbathe and chill out outdoors is right on the street so all the neighbours can perv and spy constantly.
Anyway, some friends of my parents want to rent out their apartment, which is still on the same street but is an upstairs apartment with ROOF TERRACE. Yay, I'll actually be able to get an all over tan without weird white bits. It also has sky tv(good in winter time), and a playstation even though i haven't got a clue how to work one of those yet. The rent only comes to 50 euros more and all bills will be included so in the long run I'll probably save moneys.

I'm going to set up the roof terrace like an outdoors living room- lots of armchairs, possibly a mattress for hot nights so i can sleep outside and i want to grow some herbs and things up there too.

I kind of want my brother to decide to leave soon. i know its a mean thing to think but i miss having my own space. i can't focus on meditation when i know he's in the house, even if he's asleep or something. Plus I don't really like taking friends back there because not many people *get* his sense of humour and it can be a little offensive if you don't expect it.

I have two days off work now. I thought i would be bored but I've been really busy so far today. i'd like to go to the beach tomorrow but i can't think of anyone with a car who'll have time to take me. neil is getting a car soon though, so hopefully we'll be able to go on some days out then.
Still need to learn more spanish- anyone with any suggestions of online learning programes?

I'm smiling for an incredibly random and dirty reason.
I really need a cigarette now.

I move house on 22nd April.
It kind of hit me yesterday that what i need to do before i move is ditch anything i no longer love from my life. Anything that weighs me down, doesn't make me happy or have value in my existence.
I filled a shopping trolley with books, clothes,just general stuff that i no longer need and put it outside with a notice saying "Free Stuff-get it before the goblins do!" and most of it had been claimed by midnight last night.
The getting rid of the rubbish goes for relationships and friendships too. if someone has no part to play in my life, the people who leech my energy and bring negativity towards me. By the time i move they will no longer have a space in my life.

I don't know if it's connected but I had scary dreams last night. they've left me feeling spaced out all day.

Yes. i'm still alive. i actually read everyone elses journal pretty regularly but find myself incapable of making a relevant comment.
My life is the usual mixture of various kinds of mayhem.
i still keep partying but i'm trying to cut down a little(have stayed in for last two nights go me!). Still having fun- i went swimming in the middle of the night the other week and have been on a number of crazy adventures.
work is bullshit, but i guess it pays for the lifestyle....
I have new pets- a terrapin, and two finches.
I have nothing interesting to say. I'm struggling with paranoia and really bad low moods most days at the moment.

it will pass.

I see the sun begin to rise
And I'm blinded too
I've seen the world through jaded eyes
that I'm crying through
I've watched the darkness hypnotize
And can't fight it

Hold on I'm falling
Can't breathe anymore
An ocean has opened
These scars need to heal over

Caress the needle prick in my eye
The tears fell like rain
I've rode the Phoenix as she glides
And I've gone insane
I've seen the light of suicide
And I'm dying

Hold on I'm falling
Can't breathe anymore
An ocean has opened
These scars need to heal over

Hold on I'm falling can't breathe
Breathe

Colder and colder
Just hold onto me



(when will i ever learn this song is guaranteed to make me cry)

I ended up going to bed well early last night, then woke up early this morning so managed to get loads done today.
Went to buy ruth's secret santa pressie this morning. i hope it'll make her laugh.
Got back, and went straight over to Glenn's, we watched The Doom Generation which was a weird but cool film and chilled.
When i came back i saw cat for a bit- probably going down to have a drink with her at casa carreto tonight.
So yeah, busy busy as usual...

Well, like it or not, I have a new house mate. My big brother Jude needed somewhere to live when he came back from india and i'm really the only one who could help him out.
I do miss my own space a little but when he gets a job I will have more peace and quiet(and he won't smoke all my cigarettes coz he will be able to buy his own). Plus he knows all about Indian culture from spending so much time there so i will be able to learn a lot from him.


Nothing much else to tell. I'm thinking of taking a second job if i can find one, though i think getting out there and promoting my tarot readings might be the answer now i'm earning less as its the quiet part of the year for work.

So, what is happening in bec's life currently?
For those of you that don't already know.- I am single again. *Dances*
Thus i have been relaxing, enjoying my space and being me. I have drunk slightly too much alcohol but not done anything awful while under the influence.

Birthday was awesome. I will write properly when I have more time but people got my lovely presents, and i stayed out till5am. LOL. Yay

Proper update:
Well, i spent my birthday day with ruth and glenny, getting rather drunk on champagne. By the time we went up to el pub I'd decided that i so didn't want to ever see jay again(for many reasons, all preobably kinda petty but addeed together made a massive reason). Anyways, i opened all my lovely pressies at the pub( a belt from bev and jim! perfume from fi!,underwear from mandy!, jewellery and teddy from ruth! and so on....) and then jay turned up in some sort of weirdo mood so i just ignored him,lol.
anyyway we had dinner, then went back to the pub. Ryan turned up and took me and ruth up to bar pedro and we all got more drunk and danced and talked about random shit, until he took us back to mine.

will the birthday god send me for my birthday-
a very fast car
50 cent
lots of bling
a black chinchilla fur coat
champagne
orchids

Who has facebook, so we can add each other?

I decided to fast today.
I don't think my body copes too well with having no food at all. I had a lie in and drank loads of water but by 1pm i was starting to feel shaky and headache. So i went home and curled up on the sofa and proceeded to sleep for hours.
When i woke up i felt really weak and freezing cold so i decided to go buy a yogurt drink. I think next time i'll have a rethink before i fast because it seriously didn't feel healthy at all.

Well, last night went fantastic. I was very nervous but working with Carol was great as she helped keep me calm. Our first orders started coming in at 7.15pm, and it was a set menu with about 3 options for each course so it was fairly easy as we'd prepped as much as possibly before hand. Averted major disasters by making extra chicken supreme, and changing onto different soup when we ran out. Anyway the evening flew by, i was really really proud of myself and totally impressed with how well everything went. The Pub owner who is usually kinda like Miranda in The Devil Wears Prada(won't praise you when you do something right but criticises everytime you make a mistake) even said i'd done a super job. I got out of the kitchen in time to enjoy the second half of the show with Jay and Neil-and was buzzing with adrenaline for at least the next two hours. The tarot reading i donated sold for 10 euros, and i did it for the guy when the show finished, again got told i was like 99% spot on.
All in all we raised over $1000 euros for Children In Need and Great Ormond Street Hospital- and had a great time doing it.

I have things on my mind.
I guess sometimes that makes me act weird.
I'm well nervous about tonight. i don't even have a clue how many I'm catering for now- over 70 i believe. Lucky i have carol in the kitchen with me so the night should be a real success.